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[Alot of static, the video keeps filtering in and out with broken voice patterns. The few glimpses of video that manage to get through show a very worn, very distraught Yukari.]

Cele--------chan, are y-- -----. I can't r--ch Cu----n. Pl--se, if you c-- an-w--, let me ---- y-- both ar- ------t.

.... An- p----- te-l Cu--fin I ---- ---, I-

[The video feed cuts out and goes black.]

(It takes a moment for him to recognize the voice. When he does, his heart aches for Yukari's sake.)

Yukari? Can you hear me?

(He winces when it goes black.)

Yukari?!

Celebrimbor. One of my greaves is in need of repair. Will you assist me?

I would be honored, Henry. Bring it by the Forge and I will see to it promptly.

Are you injured?

Very well.

[Henry huffs a soft breath at that question.]

No. [There is a short pause before he expands his answer. It's not a big deal, but given that Celebrimbor will see the state of his armour...] The blow that dented my greave broke my leg, but Kate healed it with Hope's blessing.

(Ah that is not uninjured! Celebrimbor purses his lips at his friend.)

I am grateful to Hope! But you must be more careful. You have only been given two legs and you need both in working order to be as active as you please!

[It was during the split, when the lack of food alongside the continuous fighting really began to take its toll. However indefatigable Henry ordinarily is, he is also only human.

Yet he is not one to make excuses.

As much as he appreciates Celebrimbor's concern for his well-being, there is still a touch of impatience in his tone.]

I assure you that I have no intention of repeating my mistake.

I know as much, friend. (He hopes to temper that impatience; it is understandable if one has any pride whatsoever - and, thankfully, Celebrimbor has a lot of experience with prideful beings. He is related to the most prideful Elves on Arda.)

I worry overmuch.

'Tis... kind of you. You have a good heart.

[His tone is awkward, but sincere.]

My heart is broken; I strive for it to be good even so. (Through good deeds and being a friend to as many as he is allowed.)

If it beats, it may yet mend. Nor is there shame in scars.

You are entirely right. I have made great strides, I think, in Hadriel, though I oft feel guilty for doing so.

Esperance, Celebrimbor. Guilt is a difficult foe to conquer.

What does that mean? Esperance?

It means hope. 'Tis my family's war cry, born from our motto.

Does that not seem odd? Hope born of bloodshed?

You misunderstand.

Hope is our banner. It is born of belief: that God will favour our cause, that our reasons are righteous, that our courage will see us triumph.

It is difficult to fight a righteous battle. Men, Elves, Dwarves... They still die. I understand that you do not wage combat unless your cause is just and necessary - for I do trust your judgement - but it is the nature of battle and war that nauseates me.

[That gives Henry pause.]

And yet you forge weapons. [Even giving them to the inexperienced. It's hard not to see a thread of hypocrisy in that.] Why not uphold your belief?

[Yukari can't bring himself to show his face right now. But he feels like he needs to confess this to Celebrimbor. Maybe because Curufin wouldn't yell at him for it; maybe he's hoping the younger Elf will yell at him, then.

He's still afraid of the outcome. What if Celebrimbor deems him unworthy of Curufin? He doesn't want Celebrimbor to view him as an enemy. But his guilt is overwhelming. And it's just enough for him to go through with this, despite the fear in his chest.]

Celebrimbor-chan....

I've broken my promise to you. I hurt Curufin.

[It was a pain caused a few months ago. But to Yukari, knowing he hurt Curufin, it felt as fresh as that day.]

(In all relationships hurt is bound to happen. No two people can exist in perfect balance always and love isn't a shield against disagreements. However Celebrimbor decides to be cautious before offering some comfort.)

How? Why?

(His father has said nothing of it to him and it worries him that Curufin might be suffering.)

Ironic, I know. I am good at it; it is a talent I inherited from my grandfather and father and, before, it was all that connected me to them. (He sighs.) I believe everyone should be able to protect themselves. The world isn't kind. But I know that my weapons are oft used in battles.

Before I was captured by the Enemy, I thought it brave to fight. I wonder over that now.

I was selfish. Back when my eye was removed.

[Did Curufin even tell Celebrimbor-chan that my eye had been repaired? Yukari didn't think to tell him at all.]

Someone offered me a solution a few months ago, through death. And before I went to battle with him, I called Curufin and told him I was going to die, and to wait for me in Hope-chan's Temple. It was such short notice, and I didn't give his feelings any consideration.

[And when Curufin recalled the pain he still carried a week later, Yukari hadn't forgiven himself since. When he woke up and Curufin barely moved when he saw him alive again. When Curufin fell apart.

And Yukari only added on to Curufin's burden with that call.

Yukari can feel the tears burning his eyes.]

I was so cruel, and he still carries it with him. [Yet he forgives me.] I'm a monster, a beast. [Yet he still calls me kind.] It's my fault... [And I'm so sorry.]

Edited 2017-06-21 11:57 (UTC)

[What Celebrimbor went through would break the spirit of many a man — or elf as it were — so perhaps he shouldn't be surprised by that perspective after all.

The truth is that it will never be a viewpoint that Henry understands.]

I see.

Have I angered you, my friend? (He realizes he can be vexing - someone who seems to support two opposing natures within one body - but that is wholly due to his family. He is not just a Finwean; he is a Fëanorian too, which basically means it's a wonder he lived as long as he did.)

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