[Yukari can't help but unconsciously take a step back from Celebrimbor's steps forward. Fear? Maybe not quite, but Yukari was definitely unsettled by it.
The truth. Celebrimbor should have the truth.]
Yes, well... That is why I'm here.
There isn't really anything to understand. I... saw your father's life in danger, and I would have done anything to keep it. And... yes. To me, that meant sacrificing you as well if I had to.
[A sigh. He knows how that sounds. Because it's exactly how it sounds. Yukari didn't care about anyone else's well being. He acted on what he wanted. The rest could burn.]
Of course, Curufin-san protested, and I wouldn't listen. In my mind, I thought...
I thought even if it meant losing him, as any form of companion, it would be worth it if I could just save him. I hurt him. [And himself] I knew I was making him suffer. I purposefully ran his heart into the ground to achieve what I wanted. I broke my promise to you, Celebrimbor-chan. I said I would never willingly hurt him, and I did. All because I believed I was right.
[He won't mention how much it tore him apart from the inside to do all of this. How it felt to keep going to the bitter end of that decision and the endless regret that came with it. Nor anything between then and now.
Cel asked for his reasoning, and that's all Yukari will give. This isn't about what he feels, it's about what he did. And he's prepared to face whatever consequences might come from it.]
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The truth. Celebrimbor should have the truth.]
Yes, well... That is why I'm here.
There isn't really anything to understand. I... saw your father's life in danger, and I would have done anything to keep it. And... yes. To me, that meant sacrificing you as well if I had to.
[A sigh. He knows how that sounds. Because it's exactly how it sounds. Yukari didn't care about anyone else's well being. He acted on what he wanted. The rest could burn.]
Of course, Curufin-san protested, and I wouldn't listen. In my mind, I thought...
I thought even if it meant losing him, as any form of companion, it would be worth it if I could just save him. I hurt him. [And himself] I knew I was making him suffer. I purposefully ran his heart into the ground to achieve what I wanted. I broke my promise to you, Celebrimbor-chan. I said I would never willingly hurt him, and I did. All because I believed I was right.
[He won't mention how much it tore him apart from the inside to do all of this. How it felt to keep going to the bitter end of that decision and the endless regret that came with it. Nor anything between then and now.
Cel asked for his reasoning, and that's all Yukari will give. This isn't about what he feels, it's about what he did. And he's prepared to face whatever consequences might come from it.]